By Mark Harvey
Sept. 1 is Father’s Day in Australia and New Zealand. I have no idea what I might have been in mind of when we had our Father’s Day, but here I am. So, being big on equality, I’ve concluded that since I’ve often given in to the temptation to write a column about Mother’s Day, it was only fair that I write a column about Father’s Day — even if I am a little late.
Hmmmm. Why is this harder than writing a Mother’s Day column?
Father’s Day seems to lack the almost universal emotional appeal of Mother’s Day. Oh, sure, we can (again) write it all off to more commercial hype, another manufactured reason to spend money, blah blah blah. But the fact is, that didn’t stop us on Mother’s Day; at least, not for long.
Why is this harder?
For Mother’s Day, guilt and the reality of our lives notwithstanding, we could get away with flowers and/or flowery cards and/or flowery meals or whatever, because it’s all about emotion and love and nurturing and softness and laughter and tears and — you know — moms.
Then along comes Father’s Day and all that flower-stuff is replaced with a … wrench? See? It’s harder.
Maybe it’s because many of us grew up without a father around — or wished we had. Maybe he was gone a lot — or even left — or we wished he had. Maybe he was a loud-mouthed, abusive, ignorant jerk — or, maybe, we’d have thought we were lucky if that was all that he was.
Or maybe he was just gone because he had to be. Gone because that was the only he knew to take care of his family. Or maybe he was “gone” when he was there, immersed by choice in “guy stuff” — whatever, but gone is “gone.”
You know, it’s easier for me to write about what’s “wrong” with fathers, and maybe that just reflects my own story, which is simply another story about “gone.”
I think most of us are old enough to have figured out that “fatherhood” has little to do with the ability to make babies, because pretty much any idiot can do that; so it has to be more about what happens after the fun part — after a little one has shown up.
And most of us who did grow up with an on-site father probably didn’t grow up with Ward Cleaver, the ever-patient, ever-gentle, soft-spoken provider. No, not likely, but some of us apparently came darned close. Good for you.
Fatherhood — actually being a “father,” beyond the biological contribution — seems to have more to do with strength and tenacity: protecting, providing, making safe … teaching.
Teaching us what it takes to survive in the world, so we can survive in the world. Teaching us about how the world will see us — who we are, from the world’s point of view — because that’s where we will have to live. Teaching, every day, about what it will take — every day — to live. What we’ll have to do and how to do it.
Teaching.
Sometimes, teaching is done by explaining — talking things through, until we understand. Often, though, this teaching thing is done by example, because we learn from what we see. So you can talk from now until forever, but if I see you doing something different, that’s what I’ll remember, and that’s what I’ll learn — which is how bad things get carefully handed down from generation to generation.
But it’s also how good things get handed down.
Many of us have had male figures in our lives who took the time to teach — to show us, to allow us to try, to allow us to fail, to correct us, to allow us to try again, to correct us again, without rejecting us. Without making us feel stupid. Patiently, because he understood that we had to learn, because we had to survive in the world. We had to be able to ask questions. We had to experiment and take chances and take risks. We had to practice and we had to be coached, and we often had to totally screw it up before we could get it right.
And we had to be able to do all of that in the presence of someone we respected, someone who wouldn’t give up on us — someone who would push us, without pushing us away. Someone who would demand that we learn what it takes to survive in the world, so we could survive in the world.
Maybe that someone was our biological father, and maybe not; most likely, if we were lucky, we had several — and if we’re really lucky, we still do. But we remember the ones who acted like “fathers,” whether or not they had anything to do with the “fun part.”
Males — men! — who were sure enough of themselves, and gentle enough and generous enough to teach — to help us get to where we needed to be. Men who gave away their time, because some other man had given his time to him, because that’s how good things get handed down.
Men who had figured out — or been taught — that it’s OK to love, and to say so and to show it, because their ability to make babies isn’t compromised by it. Men who understood that it isn’t really about Clint Eastwood machismo or blazes of glory or feats of stupefying violence and ignorance, but instead is about the everydayness of surviving in the world. And doing it as a decent human being.
Men who taught us that, at the end of the day, you have to walk away feeling OK about you.
So, whether or not you were my father, you were my “father,” and I thank you — and love you — for that. May Father’s Day be as good to you as you were to me.
Here’s a wrench.
Mark Harvey is the director of information and assistance for the Olympic Area Agency on Aging. He can be reached by email at harvemb@dshs.wa.gov; by phone at 360-532-0520 in Aberdeen, 360-942-2177 in Raymond, or 360-642-3634; or through Facebook at Olympic Area Agency on Aging-Information & Assistance.